This challenge was just an idea I had. Something to help myself be held accountable. So, here we go. Where Am I in all of this? Well, If I’m going to give you a cliche answer, it’s something I’m really working on. If I’m going to give you an honest answer, I have no idea what I’m doing, where I’m going, where I’m supposed to go, or why I can’t be as put together as everyone else seems to be.
Growing up, this whole spirituality business seemed to be so much easier. You go to church on Sundays and Wednesdays, church camp, a mission trip or two, and everything seems to just be a cycle. I thought that that is what it’s about. It’s just a cycle that everyone goes through, similar to a season.
Then, I went to college and it seemed like the entire world just fell into a black hole. Everything about life changed. My environment, my relationships, my family.. the spiritual cycle I had become accustomed to even changed. Life was never going to be the same again.
Since then, life, and spirituality, has been a struggle. A real struggle. It’s hard to admit when life is hard, but this challenge is about honesty and vulnerability. I’m not perfect. I’m not even the idea of a good Christian example like I was always shown growing up, but I am real. I’m a real human being who knows my flaws and wants to be more and to make the world a better place.
I didn’t know it then, but everything was going to be used for the good of myself. Everything I have experienced has been to make me who I am — and I like who I am.
Through this journey, I can’t wait to experience this with all of you. I can’t wait to see where we will be lead, how we will grow, who we will meet, and what we will learn, both about ourselves, and the divine.
Breathe in. Breathe out.